It did it

After writing the earlier entry, this news just pushed me over the edge. My only understanding is that the parents would hope that it was them instead of the children.

I believe I have done much connection with my inner emotions tonight. Good night world and may you rest in peace. Love the ones who love you. You may never know when you'll not see them again.

Catching up with myself

Been a while since I last made an entry when I got sick. Boy, that was one hell of a cold. I think I was bed-ridden for 5 days at least and didn't eat much. As a result I lost 1kg. No worries there, I am sure it's finding its way back. The loss of time is really biting my ass hard and deep. I am consequently so behind in my studies, espcially in CT5 which I shall be taking on Sept 12.

Coupling that with my part-time job. I am hardly studying, if at all, the accounting subjects and APC2. The assignments are looking at me eagerly. Sorry guys I am all spent. I don't want it to be a lose-lose situation. For all the folks that are studying and working at the same time, keep the good work. For God's sake I haven't been shopping in the city. The best way I find is to go straight back home everyday. A little shopping theraphy couldn't hurt? That wasn't me - it was a voice from the back of my mind!!

PJ is getting better. I finally saw her today after 2 weeks! Couldn't risk spreading my flu virus to her. I brought lunch for her and her father as the mother had gone back to My. She'll be back very soon with her youngest daughter.

And my obsession with the 70s and 80s disco music is the thing that is keeping me sane now. Often high having a night fever or enjoying it when it's raining men or let's groove. Was estatic when I finally solved the $1,000,000 question that had been bugging me in my head. There was this song that often played on the TV on a show featuring the departure of loved ones at the airports. The chorus was "...when will I see you again...". It felt like some part of me was awakened when I heard that. It was a song I listened to growing up, among hundreds of other great 80s songs. When I went home in June/July, even my cousin, who I assumed should have known, didn't even know the name of the song even though it was sooooo familiar to both of us.

You know what they say about looking for things? It won't come to you when you look for it. So I totally forgot about it for some time until I heard another song which I had loved (but didn't know the name) on Australian Idol. Whilst looking for information other singers on Wikipedia, I found out both of the songs!!! Namely, Let's Groove (the one on Aus Idol) by Earth, Wind & Fire and When will I see you again by The Three Degrees!!!! It was such great joy to finally solve the puzzle and go down the memory lane.

Unfortunately it hasn't all been good. Dad got in an accident BUT he was alright. After fearing for the loss of one of the person I love the most, I asked Mom the question - which car was it? I know it's bad but I couldn't help finding out if Dad would change the car if it was quite badly damaged. Anyway, Mom said something that I have been thinking about since even she said it so ever subtly. It's quite obvious to deduce the reason for which the accident happened. My heart just sank when I heard that. It wasn't the first time Mom ever tried to get the point across.

They do desperately need help at home. With everything. They need a child by their side. There's one actually but, well, he's the youngest child. Thing is he's not exactly the most responsible person on earth and he's in the most rebellious period of life. Parents don't often get to him. All he's into is PC games. And he lies and whinges and shouts and is rude most of the time he's approached. Mom sounded fragile momentarily before she hid it again, when she was complaining to me about it.

Torn. And I shall not thinking about it anymore as tears are rolling, ready to break the dam.

Faye Wong - Bu Liu

my fav song by Faye Wong
歌手：王菲 作曲：王菲填詞：王菲 編曲：張亞東

＊我把風情給了你　日子給了他　
我把笑容給了你　寬容給了他　
我把思念給了你　時間給了他　
我把眼淚給了你　(責任給了他)

＊我把照片給了你　日曆給了他
我把顏色給了你　風景給了他
我把距離給了你　無言給了他

＃我把煙花給了你　(我把)節日給了他　
我把電影票給了你　我把座位給了他　
我把燭光給了你　晚餐給了他　
我把歌點給了你　麥克風遞給他

＃聲音給了你　畫面給了他
我把情節給了你　結局給了他
我把水晶鞋給了你　十二點給了他

＠我把心給了你　身體給了他　
情願甚麼也不留下　再也沒有甚麼牽掛　
如果我還有哀傷　讓風吹散它　
如果我還有快樂＠

REPEAT＊＃＠

如果我還有哀傷　讓風吹散它
如果我還有快樂　也許吧

very very beautiful song and lyric.

Madonna Confessions Tour - Sorry

2nd single from her Confessions on a Dancefloor album...

Madonna / Hung Up / MTV Awards

I can still remember how excited I was when i saw this clip - the first live worldwide performance of the greatest dance track (IMHO) of all times.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

You Are a Pegasus

You are a perfectionist, with an eye for beauty.You know how to live a good life - and you rarely deviate from your good taste.While you aren't outgoing, you have excellent social skills.People both admire you - and feel very comfortable around you.

KoKo my dog

hahaha this is the first time my bro and dog appear on the internet in a video! Yee haa!

Madonna - Get Together

I give you my first YouTube featuring the Queen of Pop. Enjoy!

I got Stoned

Saw The Family Stone finally. It was something that I had wanted to watch since its launch. The movie has a cast of all stars - Diane Keaton (being the corner Stone), Sarah Jessica Parker (not so sex-in-the-city this time), Dermot Mulroney, Luke Wilson, Claire Danes and Rachel McAdams.

It's all about family. I guess we all can have a million friends and they all come and go. The only constant in the equation is family. There are a few touching moments in the movie which has been successful in tearing me up. They are all related to when the family members find out that the mother, Sybil Stone (played by Keaton) is sick and may not live much longer. Another one was when Meredith Morton (SJP's character) totally surprise the family by her Christmas present.

I wonder how my siblings and I are gonna play out when we are all grown-ups. Siblings are people you could love and hate but they are someone that you could call your own.

When can a family dinner go wrong? Well that's the climatic part of the movie where homosexuality, racism and bigotory are laid out on the dining table. If a house is the collection of a family's history I'd have to say that the dining table is the recorder of even the most intimate conversation.

Another interesting feature of the movie is that their gay son is also deaf hence there's sign language in the movie. I feel that whatever one says, accompanied with signs, means doubly more. You have to mean it to say it and to sign it.

I just had to cry after it ended thinking about those who are across the ocean. Miss them terribly.

Supersick Returns

Had a freezing night on Sat out on Docklands with Winnie and Sherly. The view was very nice. And some very unique statues. And two great friends. Unfortunately I wasn't dressed warm enough that night hence I caught a cold.

Woke up with a headache on Sunday. Some uncontrollable shiver while visiting a friend at the hospital. And they all got worse on Monday - when I started my 4-day long (until now) of sleeping therapy.

First 2 days were all fever and headaches. My cold cycle wouldn't complete without coughing, phlegm, blocked breathing but runny nose bla bla...And that's what happened on Wed & today. As a result I have missed work on Mon and Tue. Had no choice but to go to work in cold on Wed. It was horrible. I couldn't help shivering. Also I have missed several classes and more importantly my preparation for CT5 exam in Sept has also been interrupted.

I wanna get well tomorrow.... And I am missing my parents..