Friday, December 24, 2004

Lost without IT

So happie...finally stepped onto the weight machine at home n yippie!! I've lost 10kg according to the machine, since July04.

Looked at one photo taken when i was still in my 'peak' form, i looked so plum!! really looked like a stuffed toy. yucks!! >.<

i wonder if i should make a before and after comparison...

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Where do I go from here?

I have done something I haven't done in such a long time - being a couch potato. Literally I sat in front of the TV the whole day n night, till just before now. Was watching the 9th and final season of 'The X-File'. I really spent much less time with the TV this semester compared to the last few ones.

It's been a while that there is no really pressing matter for me to accomplish - which is a good thing. Have devoted all the time for my studies and some other stuff this semester that I rarely do other relaxing stuffs like watching TV, window shopping, spending time with my housemates and my sister and other friends. Or just even to finish 'the opposite of fate'.

My room was tidier when I was busy - now it's a mess considering the free time I have got. Should vacuum, throw some stuffs, arrange my room into a more presentable sight. All the dust must be gone. And also the apartment, cleaning must be carried out.

I think I am missing something - I should have a back-up plan if I don't get into Honours. Damn it. I've totally forgotten about it. I haven't looked up all the info of my potential employers. Moreover, my PR application. I have been ignorant and over-confident about my honours entry. This is not looking very good.

What is lying ahead of me? I guess that is the ultimate purpose of life - to find out who I truly am. A few rides that I am sure to be riding - result coming out, honours entry, going home, breaking some news, chinese new year...But after that, I can't even imagine where will I be.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

9am Appointment

It was a busy morning, approximately 8:30 am, when an elderly gentleman, in his 80's, presented to have sutures (stitches) removed from his thumb. He stated that he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 am. I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an hour before someone would to able to see him.

I saw him looking at his watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound. On exam it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound. While taking care of his wound, we began to engage in conversation. I asked him if he had a doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I then inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for awhile and that she was a victim of Alzheimer Disease.

As we talked, and I finished dressing his wound, I asked if she would be worried if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was ... that she had not recognized him in five years now. I was surprised, and asked him. "And you still going every morning, even though she doesn't know who you are?" He smiled as he patted my hand and said.. "She doesn't know me, but I still know who she is."

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life." True love is neither physical, nor romantic.

True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

I m not bothered anymore, hehehe

Hmmmm, i hv just made a decision to myself. In the wake of last week's decision of letting my housemates be aware of their own responsibilities towards the apartment, I've decided to take up most of the house chores onto my own 2 shoulders.

I m happy that i can finally reach the conclusion of not to be bothered anymore... this also coincides with the attitude that i put on 2 weeks ago when Moon & Eelin felt that i was cold towards them.


However, I hv to remind myself of this: no matter how I am gonna change my attitude coldly towards the others, I must have tried to put some effort into the relationship before the change. And there are always several patrons that I can't change my attitude towards them.

yeah, thaz about it...

Saturday, August 21, 2004


"wah, this is unbelievable!" i was stoned for a little while looking at the scale this morning when i was about to get into the shower.

i finally reached 70kg. 70kg! well i still hv at least 2kg to it too early to congratulate myself? 70kg was initially my target of mid September but i've reached it way earlier than that. it's like breaking a world record in the olympics but this record could only be recorded in Alfred's Guinness Own Record.

change of scene: now i m giving out my Oscar speech for losing weight. i really would love to thank my parents. i wouldn't hv had the D&D (determination & discipline) without their encouragement. they hv always given me the exact encouragement where n when i need them. be it 'tiong eng, mummy loves u thaz y i want u to look better' or 'tiong eng, u wanna go for a jog now? - another 10 mins dad, it's hot out there - come on, it's late! we better get going (after 15-20mins)' or 'u used to b so skinny when u're a kid that ppl tot u're malnourished but now u're so big!' or 'mummy isn't gonna cook too much good food for u since i want u to lost weight - yeah ok... :(' or 'i always treat the time like moving cans of pesticides, mowing the bush at the warehouse, un/loading tiles/50-kg-cement onto a my workout session'

those r the full-of-wisdom-and-love words that come from my parents aiming str8 to my face. n also when my mum calls from Malaysia, 'Tiong Eng, hv u lost some weight recently? please don't get fatter u's for ur own good'. it's always for my own good n i agree! and it'd normally follow that 'i only tell u this because u r my son, wouldn't hv bothered if it's other ppl'.

at this point of time, i'd hv to reduntdantly say that they (my parents) really want the best for me. they r right MOST of the time. n i would like to make them happy by listening to them MOST of the time!

also i'd like to thank my brother, Tiong Teck. 'Gor, do u wanna go for a jog?'. he always accompanies me to jog up the 'bukit' every afternoon when he doesn't go for tuition classes. U rock bro!

will call u guys later to let u know the good news. meanwhile, i just wanna let myself know that i love myself that i wanna take care of myself. that is the best gift one can ever give oneself n eventually the gift to the ones that love u.

Thursday, July 29, 2004

I welcome myself to this new stuff in my life

This is absolutely new to me. I like this background a lot. I think it's cool. I wanna be kool. Probably there won't be anything interesting posted - just me crapping. Probably you and I will be discovering something that remains unknown, even to me, before it's posted here.

Starting a new semester. I am trying to word what I have been feeling in the last 3 days. Edward McEllin is crappy as usual. Hahaha... And also Kotsya. I wonder what happened to his leg and what would have happened if he couldn't walk. Haven't been into DD's class yet and I am not looking forward to it. Not much into his class - I think he's a little too serious. A bit scary for me to be in his class. As for 333-309, no idea who'll be the lecturer and how hard is the course going to be.

It's late now. I gotta go wash up and get ready for bed, oh my LOVELY quilt cover. Good night Melbourne. Good night Tanah Merah.


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