Drwnd Wrld

I hv bn qt nctv ltly - n mny wys. Lst, cnfsd, wrrd, bl whl pttng n n K fc. I m ll ths thngs. N tp f tht, my fnncl rsrcs hv bn dply dpltd s mch s tht I jst tld Chryl tht my bnk ccnt blnc ws 0. ZR!!


Smtms whn I fl lk ll hp s lst, I bcm qt n scpst. I wnt t brd th nxt MH149/129 bck t Mlys. Wtht PR chncs f gttng a jb hv bcm vn slmmr. I gt n ntrvw in bldy Bllrt with NB. Tht's rlly fckng fr. I trnd t dwn vntlly. I wldn't gt t nywy wtht PR nd I wldn't wnt t mv t Bllrt. Wht dd I jst d - trnng dwn smthng tht mght b th bggst chnc f my lf? nd gt blcklstd by NB? Bt I jst flt mch lghtr whn I dcdd to wthdrw my applctn.


nthr thng tht hs md m ngry ws tht th lndlrd hs ncrsd r rntl gn. t s lrdy th thrd tm n a yr nd ths tm h bldy ncrsd t by $50 a wk! I knw tht th rntl mrkt s tght bt $50 nd s frqntly? t dds nthr dmnsn f ncrtnty t my lf. t ls pt a thnkng cp n my hd tht t smd ncssry t rn s mch $$$ s sn s pssbl s tht I cld lv ndr my wn rf.


S fr, lf hs md m rls 2 thngs: w rly t mch n cnvnc nd th scfc my prnts & fmly hv md t llw m t cm s fr. Snc I hv t mch tm n hnd, I thnk bt lf vry mrnng - jst tk wshng my fc wth wrm wtr by jst trnng n th wtr tp, hw cld ppl frm th 40s d s? Ppl frm th 1900s stll prbbly hd to d thr nmbr 2 by a rvr - whn w nw jst flsh. nd thn trnng n th stv t ck - ppl frm th pst hd t cllct fr wd, rb tw pcs f rcks t crt sprks bt nw w hv gs spply jst s sly. n wntr, w'd jst trn n a htr whrs th cv ppl shvrd nd trmbld n frzng tmprtr. I rlly wnt t try t cnsrv nd prsrv bcs I dn't rlly thnk I'm wrth ll ths lxrs tkn frm th rth fr grntd.

I thnk I nd t stp ths pst bfr I g crzy wth th omssn f ll vwls. Lt m knw f y hv rd vrythng p t ths pnt nd ndrstd vrythng I'v sd - y dsrv a cmplmnt tht "Y rlly cr bt m nd y hv t mch tm!!!"